i'm thrilled...to have a future! to know that one day i'll be on my own gives me this feeling in my very core, terror and excitement... i'm not ready to be an adult yet. you dont just one day become one.... it doesnt just 'happen'.
this summer i'll get a taste of adulthood! well more like college life. June 19-23 i will be in the cities for this art institute program thing. it'll be supervised and everything, though.
i want to be an animator... i'm pretty dead-set about this ambition. i'm just not sure where i want to go to school for it yet. like, the art institute nearby is a wee bit shady.. like its super easy to get into? i guess most art majors don't need to be a math prodigy or a science genius, but... i want to go somewhere good, ya know? i want to be proud. and there are no dorms.. i want to experience college life- having a roommate and having fun meeting people! i'll probably go somewhere else to get my gen-eds done first or something, hopefully UofM.. if i can get in. blah idk. so unsure. i kind of like that, it's comforting not knowing for sure what will happen.
thinking about the future is like trying to see through this heavy, hazy fog in the early morning- the farther away it is from you, harder it is to see. like, you can predict things that will happen this week, this month, etc but trying to predict three years from now is nearly impossible. so many things could happen from point A to point B in time.
i want to be an animator... i'm pretty dead-set about this ambition. i'm just not sure where i want to go to school for it yet. like, the art institute nearby is a wee bit shady.. like its super easy to get into? i guess most art majors don't need to be a math prodigy or a science genius, but... i want to go somewhere good, ya know? i want to be proud. and there are no dorms.. i want to experience college life- having a roommate and having fun meeting people! i'll probably go somewhere else to get my gen-eds done first or something, hopefully UofM.. if i can get in. blah idk. so unsure. i kind of like that, it's comforting not knowing for sure what will happen.
thinking about the future is like trying to see through this heavy, hazy fog in the early morning- the farther away it is from you, harder it is to see. like, you can predict things that will happen this week, this month, etc but trying to predict three years from now is nearly impossible. so many things could happen from point A to point B in time.
time is just...like, i feel as if it's flying out of my ass at a rapid, constant rate. i can hardly believe things that happened a year ago... were a WHOLE year ago that didn't seem that far past... it's just dust in the wind now. said and done. blotchy memories.
yet i'm still very young, and it's frustrating and relaxing a the same time. i'm anxiously awaiting the future, constantly.
only time will tell, and it's passing me by like a RAY OF LIGHT.
yet i'm still very young, and it's frustrating and relaxing a the same time. i'm anxiously awaiting the future, constantly.
only time will tell, and it's passing me by like a RAY OF LIGHT.
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